I’m backkkk!!!

Hey guys, I know it’s been a while since I’ve written anything. I needed a break and you’ll soon understand! Before I get into the serious, I just want to take a moment and say my baby boy is about to be ONE next month! Who let time fly by like that?! He is becoming quite the personality let me tell you that. The big guy is walking all over the place now and getting into EVERYTHING! We’ve been planning his birthday party and everything is starting to come together (finally).

Back to why I’ve been gone. So as I’ve talked about before I struggle with postpartum depression. It’s something that I’m very open about since it’s common. Here lately my husband and I had noticed that things just weren’t the same. We had been fighting and lot more than normal and I was/am always sad. We were arguing for about a week straight and we finally decided that it was time for me to go see a psychologist, with him there as support of course. This was not an easy thing for me to do as I have a hard time opening up and telling people how I really feel and what’s going on inside my head. When we got to the facility, everything kind of hit me. It was really overwhelming for me and was nothing how I pictured it. However, once we were through with the first part of the “intake” we sat down with a therapist. That change my outlook on a lot of things. I was telling her so many things that I kept bottled up. I told her all my fears and worries about being a new mom and how I feel like a lot of things are my fault. She kept reassuring me, mother to mother, that I am not the only one that has gone through this and it’s pretty normal. After all was said and done, I was diagnosed with major depression disorder. While I haven’t seen the actual psychologist and gotten medication yet, this was definitely a step in the right direction. I felt so good walking out of there and knowing I was actually doing something to better, not only myself, but my family as well. At the end of the day, no matter what, we are all human and we all have feelings and emotions. It’s okay to talk to someone about them. It’s good. Take it from me, if you keep things bottled up for too long you never know when you‘re going to break and how bad it will be. This is the first of many steps and I, of course, will try to keep all of y’all updated in my journey. Until next blog, I hope you have a magical day!

~Kenzie