Mental health comes first. Always.

My heart is heavy today, and my mind is racing, I just need to sit and write. For those of you who didn’t know, last week I started a new job part-time. My intention was to get out of the house a little, and do something I thought was right for me. Apparently I was wrong. The more I thought about it, the more I realized I made the wrong choice. Hayden is 8 months old and I thought I would be ready to go back to work. Everything happened so fast and I just didn’t feel like anything had changed since going back. In fact, it almost felt like things got worse. If you’ve read my first blog (well technically second if you count my introduction post) you know that I struggle with postpartum depression. I thought getting out and distracting myself with work would help. I found myself worrying more about Hayden and causing fights with Michael and everyone around me.

Today I made the decision to quit my job and focus on raising my amazing baby and spending more time with him. Not only that, but I want to focus on making myself happy. See, when it comes down to your mental health, you need to take care of that first. Don‘t rush into anything without considering how you might feel about it in the long run. Michael tried to warn me about going into a job and how it might make me feel and I didn’t listen. If I would have listened, then I wouldn‘t be in the mind space I’m in. I know that I won’t regret this decision, especially since the holidays are coming up and I have so many ideas and plans for Hayden and our family in general!